Hello guys,
this is my first and probably my last time on this side, but I wanted to share something even if it isn't something good to know (Excuse me for my english)
I did quit FEH and will now seek for professional help from a doctor or a psychiatrist, because I'm gambling addicted.
Please note that I'm not saying anything against Fire Emblem Heroes or other gatcha games, I just want to spread awareness of the risks playing those games in general or any micro transaction games.
I started playing FEH back in December 2017. I liked the Fire Emblem Game Series and thought that maybe I'll have fun with this game too.
I played it quiet a while. January 2018 and Legendary Ike came on a banner into the game. Me as a little Ike fanboy made jump and jacks when I heard he came into the game. This was the first time I spent about 200 € (~229,26 USD) for the game. Got him to +3 and I was pretty happy.
After that spending I spend regularly little amounts of money to summon more frequently. About 3-4 months later I spended about 800 € (~917,03 USD) in this game. A good friend of mine who also played the game as a Free-2-Play Player talked with me about who much I spent money in this game. So I tried sometime to play the game without really spending anything. It worked for about 3 weeks, but I had often really bad headache, was pretty nervous or sometimes aggressive. Than August came with the CYL 2 Banner and I was really scared at this time. I didn't know if I had the strenght to keep myself from spending money. At the near end from the banner I couldn't hold myself back anymore and spent around 1200 € (~1376,16 USD) to get 2x Hectors, 1x Ephriam and 1x Celica.
I was devastated and cried on that day. I didn't told anyone about this, because I was embarrassed and didn't want to drag someone into my problem.
The next legendary banner came and again I spent around 700€ (~802,83 USD) on that banner. I was called at my home because I didn't went to work on this day. I thought about what I did and thought about my life on that day the whole day long. I said to myself that I need to change things because I can't hold on any longer like that. I fought with myself quiet a bit and even hurt myself once when I tried to buy something again. I was really depressed and sad at this time. Now at the beginning of October I made a point with myself and told my friend about my problem for the first time, how much I spent and how I was in pain because of it. He immediately flew to me to help me out (he's living about 7 hours away from me). I then talked to my familiy with my friend about the problem I had the last months now. With the help of my familiy and my friend I could quit the game complettly and shutting down every connection I had to it.
That's the story of my time.
It took me some trys to write this down so I'm sorry if there are many grammer flaws, but I think people will still get what I wrote.
People might say now that this story is a lie, some people might say it's the truth and everyone can think what they want I'm not hindering them.
For everyone that might have a problem like this and read this:
Please guys don't keep it a secret and talk to someone you trust. To take the problem by yourself can bring more problems with it. Seek for help from anywhere just don't keep it to yourself. To ask for help isn't embarrassing at all and none needs to feel scared. There are many good people out there that will help you regardless in which situation you are in. If you enjoy any game and spent money on it please do it with your mind behind it. It's not wrong to spent money on something you like and support but don't let it overcome you and start spending recklessly.
Maybe in some distant future games that support such micro transaction mechanics will do a warning before people will play to say that it can make you addicted, but I highly doubt it.
That's the end now. I hope I could help people in some extend who read this.
I wish everyone who reads this a wonderful day and hope you have fun in any game you play.